Love-Rhapsody .:Paradise:.

2006-08-04T16:59:00.000+08:00

Ok. Some things are TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.

You know abt the "buffet lunch" I was talking about in my previous few posts? Its FAKE.

HOW TYPICAL AND NORMAL IS THAT?

I knew something was bound to go wrong today. And THIS IS WAD WENT WRONG. And Mr Tan did mention that the school MADE A TIDY PROFIT out of the Esplanade Concert. And the performers don't even get a post-party! Hmph. They treat us like the other students. $3 coupons each, for CANTEEN food. How nice.

1.Canteen Food sucks
2.Since they made such a tidy profit, why didn't they throw a post-party for the performers.
3.We put in 6 MONTHS of effort. Er... HeLLo~?
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Ok, enough with this complaints. AT LEAST they gave us coupons for free canteen food. Even though its not a buffet like wad Dr Boon said ):

Anws. I'm happy because..... Drum Roll Please... Oi. Drum roll leh.

CHOIR IS HAVING A MAJOR CAMP FROM 4TH TO 7TH DEC 06!!!!

Whees!!!! (: Just received the info today. So excited =D We're gonna have a camp at some Malaysia RESORT (not bad eh? overseas leh) And some more at Malaysia leh!!! There got a GIANT shopping malls =D And its not only the AHS choir sia. Its ALOT of different choirs that are under Mr Nelson Kwei =D So Mr Tan told us to "expect 700-800 people to be there"

WOOTS!!!!

So excited because:
1.I can make many many many many many many many MANYYYYYY NEW FRENS!!!!!
2.Can go shopping if the choir requests an extension =D
3.Overseas without parents but with frens instead!!!!
4.Can share room with fren =D
5.Can see alot of new "shuai ges". Heheh.... XD

YAYSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha. So happy!! =D

But first there is the HORRID HORRID HORRID End of Yr exams....
And december is like, 4 MONTHS from now. wow.
Maybe I shouldn't get too happy. Later something goes wrong at the last minute... -.-

LIKE TODAY.

Anw. That's all for now. Stay tuned peeps! =D

2006-08-03T19:53:00.000+08:00

Heheh. Changed the blog layout. Nice? Ok, dun answer that question.

Anyway. today was ok la i think. The creating of this layout made me happy =) I guess.

I dun wanna talk abt anything that happened today. It was a VERY NORMAL day. So normal that i think something is bound to go wrong tmr. Ok, forget abt that.

I seriously have nothing to tag abt.

And I am still resting.

2006-08-02T19:06:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

How true.... dun xiang wai la, i noe the last part abit... ok.

Today was horrid. *yawns* How normal. I wont go into details. too many "interesting" stuff has been happening that i dun want to elaborate on my blog. Too lazy to.

Cant wait for Friday. And then again, it might be another horrid day too. except for the afternoon perhaps. Perhaps not. maybe i'll spill sweet drinks or topple over the buffet table. Geesh. How embarassing. *rolls eyes* + *yawns*

I'm sick and tired of everything. My life. My school. My classmates. EVERYTHING.

What a dismal life i have.

I wonder how it feels to be different from me. Nice Life? Perhaps.

All the things I actually look forward to have suddenly *POOF* disappeared. Just like that. At least thats how i feel. I think I'm going to go crazy soon.

Everything NICE AND FUN has suddenly turned into a NIGHTMARE. I'm depressed, sullen, tired, upset, unhappy, stressed, disappointed, angry, sad... wadever SHIT you can think of.

Someone tell me, HOW CAN ANYONE FEEL ALL THESE EMOTIONS AT ONE TIME?

They'd EXPLODE, right?

And I think thats apparently wads gonna happen. Why should you care? Perhaps you shouldn't. And then again, I still wish you would.

And then again, I dun think you should come meddle with my life. Let me settle my MIXED-UP, MUDDLED, MISERABLE life, alone. I think I'd appreciate either.

Who cares anyway?

I'm not looking forward to anything, nor am i interested in anything. My interest for things around me just suddenly vanished. Just like that. I think I'm on a really really EXCITING swing. A mood-swing that is.

One second I'm way up high in the sky, and the next I'm low, down to the ground.

And apparently I'm tired, thats why i stopped the swing from swinging, so now, I'm resting on low ground. And i have a feeling its gonna be a long rest.

2006-07-31T17:43:00.000+08:00

I miss yesterday. I wanna go back in time, back to yesterday.

I wanna go back to yesterday. Everything fun this yr happened yesterday. Everything i REALLY look forward to is back in time, yesterday. I wish there would be another exact same yesterday. The Esplanade concert seriously ROCKS. I wanna go back to yesterday, back inside the dressing room, crapping with my seniors and EVERY MEMBER OF CHOIR. I wanna go back to yesterday, so that the sec 4s will nvr leave... Yesterday had been really great. Though it just.... came and went.

I wanna go back to yesterday and be with the whole choir, including the sec 4s. I will miss yesterday alot... alot. 30th July 2006 has been a TURNING POINT in my life, as a choir member. It had been a turning point for my sec 1 life, as a student in Anglican High Choir. I miss yesterday alot. If only i could go back in time, back to yesterday, and never let it slip away. I want to go back into yesterday's arms. I want to travel back in time, i want to go back to yesterday.

A turning point in sec sch life, just came and went. I'm feeling DISMAL. I think I'm gonna fall to pieces. Yesterday will be a REALLY GREAT MEMORY for my secondary school life. I think Friday will be another memorable day. I'll be meeting the sec 4s for the LAST TIME, as in, during CCA activities. And it might really be the last time, cos sec 4s and sec 1s dun meet often. But i still wanna wish the sec 4s the best.

Wish you all the best for ur 'O's. must jia you and get into a good JC.

The memorable dates so far in my whole life:
17 June 1993, My birthday (though i cant rmb anything)
1 Jan 2000, The New Millenium
26 Dec 2004, The First Tsunami that takes up this GREAT part in my memory.
1 Oct 2005, My Last Children's Day
P6 Graduation day (i rmb i cried)
23 Dec 2005, The date which i received my PSLE results.
06 June 2006, The day i rededicated myself to Christ.

And the most recent one:
30 July 2006, Esplanade Concert.

As all of you can see.... Dis Esplanade Concert really means alot to me. The orientation camp was really really very memorable, but it still isn't part of the list. You guys wanna noe why? Becos it ISN'T THAT SPECIAL or WORTH REMEMBERING(in my point of view)

So compare. This means that the Esplanade concert is really really really really really really really precious and worth remembering to me. Its a GEM. A PRECIOUS GEM.

So precious that it can even make it onto this list. I really want to go back in time..... Back to yesterday. My first performance and last performance with the sec 4s. Even though the performance lasted only a few minutes, the DAY was really great. Thank you choir sec 4s 06, For leaving such a memorable imprint in my head. Although the time we had together was short, I still treasure every single bit of it. And those few minutes on stage with you guys were REALLY great. So great that i cannot put it into words.

This performance will be edged onto my mind forever and ever. If i ever forget this performance, I'm a lousy junior, and anybody has permission to smack my face.

2006-07-31T13:53:00.000+08:00

I've just realised.... The songs i put here on my blog seriously describes wad im feeling now.
Avril Lavigne can really sing.

The first song especially.
'Somebody rip my heart out, and leave me here to bleed...'

All the songs la, in any case.
'And i dun wanna fall to pieces, i just wanna sit and stare at u...'
' I wanna know everything, everything...'

'try to tell me wad i shouldn't do, u should noe by now, i wont listen to you...'
'im gonna close my eyes...'
'just freak out, let it go...'

'how does it feel to be, different from me, are we the same, how does it feel?'

'If you wanna bring me down, go ahead and try....'

'the day, you slipped away, was the day, i found it wont be the same....'
'i miss you'

'cos i know your worth it, you're worth it....'
'all these things i'll nvr say'
'i stumble.'

'i dunno wad to say... tomorrow.'
'gimme a little time...'
'not today, today, today, today....'
'i dunno how i'll feel, tommorow, tomorrow....'
'I know im not ready'
'maybe tomorrow...'
'and i wanna believe you, when you tell me i'll be ok....'
'tomorrow will never change.'

yea. these songs really rock.

'i think i'll like to get to noe you a little more'
'Who knows wad could happen'
'How do you always fall into the best way to compromise?'
'its always a brand new day, im gonna live today like its my last day'
'be urself.'
'do your best, just keep on laughing'

ok. i love the songs. They totally rock to da core.

2006-07-31T13:02:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating recently. Anw, I'm happy =)

Had the Esplanade Concert yesterday. It was a success =) But it was scary to realise that 3000 ppl were there and staring at you. It was relli scary. But thanks to God, the choir managed to curb their fear =) And the rewards are GREAT. Today no school, friday got.... BUFFET LUNCH!!!

Hehehx... that caught ur eye didn't it? BUFFET LUNCH!!! hehehx.... =D

Im glad that all the efforts we put in paid off. Training was tough man. But after the concert, I felt it was all worth it. I guess everyone feels that way. Especially the sec 4s.... I'll miss them!!! After the concert, I was happy, but after thinking it through, i realised that the sec 4s would be leaving.... =( I will miss the sec 4s alot! Especially my mommy and daddy.... Lol. But seriously, i think i will miss them alot. i heard frm my mommy that the sec 4s were CRYING before the concert ='( OMG rite?

Thats sad.

But i'll get to see them one last time at the buffet lunch. just hope they wont cry.... I think they will miss us alot. Its not only us missing them, they will miss us too. The experiences with them. Although its just one performance, I think the sec 1s and the sec 4s has the bond already... After this week... all the choir pratices, no sec 4s at all. IT IS SAD ='(

But this will happen sooner or later one. After all, they already helped us out for this concert. I think frm now onwards, we will have to zi li geng sheng.... After all, they will be leaving this yr and we nid to jia you for SYF. We shouldn't let the sec 4s down. They've been clinching Gold Medals, and if next yr we fail to do so, the stress will be on us... so we still have to do our best to do the sec 4s proud. Its sad though. I like the sec 4 seniors. I want to do them proud. I think all sec 1s SHOULD feel this way if they don't. Especially the sopranos. No offence.

This yr's sopranos alot.... Sec1s. all of a sudden, the intake of sec 1s were HUGE. HALF the sopranos are sec 1s. crazy rite? The sec 1s nid to brush up on their singing. Or else the sec 1s will be pulling the standard down and next yr's SYF will be a FIASCO.

Nobody wants to disappoint this yr's sec 4s rite???? The answer better be yes.

SEC 1S MUST JIAYOU!!!

2006-07-27T18:41:00.000+08:00

Leave everything in God's hands.

Thats wad liuying said. And i guess i'll do so. Thanks for the "counselling" liuying =)

I'm learning to take things in my stride. From today onwards, I shall:
1.Take things in my stride.
2.Stop being so brainless at times.
3.Stop judging other ppl.
4.Try to stop doing some little things.... XD
5.Learn to keep away from temptations.
6.Learn to manage my emotions better.
7.Learn to keep my temper.
8.Listen more to my mom.
9.Stop complaining abt other ppl.
10.Learn to control my mouth.
11.Learn to be more polite to ppl.
12.Stop being TOO curious at some times. =)
13.Stop being so KPO. =)
14.Learn to calm down more efficiently.
15.Learn to keep ALL my promises.
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Ok, Those being said, i shall continue with my events today.

Today, i had maths class test on congruence n similarity/statistics/3'm's
Ok. My class dragged on for 5 mins when the time already started for the test. Mr lim was like, "I shall wait till you guys settle down first before i let u start writing. The time continues to run"
Wah piang. 5 mins. Its ALOT de ok? In the end, My whole class couldn't finish the paper becos of the lack of time. and I lost 5 marks. 5 MARKS!! alamak. This test is upon 30. and it takes up 30% of my marks. So this means that i wasted 5% of my marks. And who knows whether I lost other marks due to careless mistakes.

AND IM SUPER CARELESS DE OK. Didn't even have time 2 finish. How to check? alamak. Ok, i shall stop brooding abt my wasted 5%.

Bball match. Girls got 1st runner up, guys got 1st.
The match i want to emphasize on is the guys one. Not only becos they won, but also becos it was a NERVE-WRECKING match. It was really exciting can? Got alot ALOT of "climax points" in these match. haha. I want to comment on Dunman sec for their spirit.

Dunman sec-->SUPER DUPER bonded.
Got team spirit
Cheer SUPER LOUD. er. ok. XD
Aiya. Everything la.

Dunman sec, even though they lost, they weren't sore losers =) They were really nice. They cheered for their team though they lost =) Very pei fu them.

Dunman sec left a pretty good impression for us AHSians i think. cheerios =D

[[`how does it feel?___]]

2006-07-26T18:43:00.000+08:00

I guess i'll just get over it . Pray that I'll stop doing stupid things. Pray that god will help. Ok. Pray that more ppl will understand me. Pray that I wont hate anyone. Pray that some particuliar ppl will stop being so insensitive. Pray that some people will quit being hypocrites. Pray that god will bless me and my family. Pray for this.... and that. Pray that I will follow god closely. Pray that ppl will be saved.
PRAY FOR THE WORLD.
PRAY FOR MY LIFE TO IMPROVE.

2006-07-26T17:53:00.000+08:00

Ok. I hate my life. My life is LITERALLY pointless. People don't know me, don't understand me, and yet they always think that they are like, so close with me, like they know my inside out. Switch over, I'M THE ONE THATS TRULY DISAPPOINTED.

I think im getting depression o.o

Someone counsell me or smth can? I am in need of SERIOUS COUNSELLING. My life is very very pointless, it can also be compared with the word "fiasco". Dad's not with me and mom, mom is just a mere tuition teacher.

You see, People dunno ME AT ALL. I bet u didn't even noe my dad isn't living with me and my mom right? I bet u don't even know wads up with my life. You guys are LUCKY ok? Not so for me. And I have to bear with ppl's tempers/tantrums. And ppl dun even at least TRY to understand me. People just DUN CARE. And only when I'm about to break down, u ppl SUDDENLY show CONCERN.

HYPOCRITICAL CONCERN THAT IS.

If u wanna act concerned right, i suggest yuou go to some arts academy to learn. You're super lousy, thanks.

I dun nid some HYPOCRITE to shower ABUNDANT CONCERN over me. All i want to say is, GET AWAY FROM ME, U FILTHY HYPOCRITE.

I hope you feel ashamed. ASHAMED, as in, u feel like FLUSHING urself down the toilet bowl and end up in NOWHERE.

U people will nvr understand me. I hope i meet somebody that has telepathic links with me. So that he/she can REALLY SHOWER ME WITH ABUNDANT CARE AND CONCERN.

HYPOCRITICAL CONCERN just makes me feel like saying, "U're a shameless creep, get lost before I decide to bash you in the face!"

U see, there's is this REALLY GREAT DIFFERENCE between HYPOCRITICAL and GENUINE.

So, now you know me more by 0.0000001%, try to understand me 0.0000001% more can?

At least I'll be glad that this 0.0000001% is GENUINE and NOT HYPOCRITICAL.

There's still this big 99.9999999% for u to figure out ALONG THE WAY.

Church frens are always the best to turn to in these times, since they've been with you for like, 10/13 of ur life and they might at least noe 60% abt u.

Sometimes they fail too, so to those I ONLY JUST KNEW, dun be such a HYPOCRITE.

I'll gladly appreciate it.

2006-07-26T17:36:00.000+08:00

Hmph. That person pissed me off agn. I shan't elaborate.

I HATE being misunderstood. I only just realised that many ppl DUNNO me AT ALL.

Its enough if you dunno me for some things, u dun nid to like, ACT LIKE YOU KNOW ME, then after that try to play hero when the middleman KNOWS WADS BEST. And its not only that. People dunno wad REALLY happened, then they scold u and make u embarassed. Its ANNOYING OK? I mean, its not you thats angry la. U think other ppl got no sense of shame meh? Wel, you dun have, but i have ok? Sense of shame that is.

If you dunno wad REALLY happened, dun go ASSUMING that the person is a true-blue baddie/meanie. I mean, wads ur prob la?? Go arnd thinking that other ppl is some meanie and baddie? U like "bei gong she ying" u noe?

Its really dumb la, u think of it urself. U go arnd treating other ppl as a baddie. Ur already PREJUDICED against that person le, how can you DISTINGUISH between the truth and the fake? I mean. u already DUN LIKE that person le, and jus becos that person SAYS something, u misunderstand, then u will STRAIGHTAWAY think that the person is in e wrong rite? So dun go arnd hating another person. It'll do you no good. U'll just embarass urself in the end. U dumbo.

Grrrr.... If YOU so happen to read this, pls learn something frm it can? Dun go arnd MISUNDERSTANDING another INNOCENT person AGAIN.

Ok, thats all i have to say.

[[all those things....
i'll never say___]]'

2006-07-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

I dun like ppl hu scold u when ur not doing anything bad. its very funny of them. Ok, maybe sometimes i can get abit kpo but wadever la. Its in human's nature that ur curious and kpo. so wadever. Can dun scold ppl like without a good reason. its not like i m the person that went to scold u lo. im not directly the person anyway. just anyhow scream arnd... haiz. anyway, i guess curiousity kills the cat.

so... aiya.

2006-07-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

<3 ok guys, i love u all sooooo much =)).

Thanks for tagging! And yes, 6h 05 rox! =)) lol. now i get to lengthen my links list =)

Today was a normal day for me =) I thank God for that. <3 And tmr is full-dressed rehearsal, and im so looking forward to it =))) YAY!

Lemme elaborate abit. To those from my church, hey guys!!!! Love ya guys LOTS. To those who prayed for me. it worked =) It was a blessing in disguise.

YEPP, A BLESSING IN DISGUISE =)

I didn't get to borrow some old gown from my ex seniors to be extremely careful with, I got to MAKE A NEW ONE for FREE. <3

And one gown cost $99 dollars lehh... pretty wasted la, but i think its still a blessing in disguise. at first it was(for those without gowns) "deemed to be not performing", but now, its a big whee!!! for me =) I really thank the choir fund and the ppl who contributed to the fund. Seems like we cant splurge on e end of yr outing, but yea.... I thank my seniors for contributing to the making of 5 gowns which cost $495 altogether.....

Its a waste, but, u see, we all really want to perform u see, due to all the amnt of hard work preparing =) So the teachers thought of this way....

IM REALLY GREATFUL TO GOD FOR THIS BLESSING IN DISGUISE =)

<3 lord ="))">

I love choir and God alot. Its just, such a miracle.... Its a blessing in disguise as well as a miracle. I love my life. Ok, Wad has my life got anything to do with this.

Anyway,

Praise e LORD!!!

2006-07-19T17:59:00.000+08:00

Ok ppl... this post is all abt my special HIM ;) (dun wan read can de, skip it)

Today during PW Alvina and me were doing all our crapping.(thinking abt PW makes me so freaking pissed >=[ ) Ok, nvm, i shall continue.

We were doing out usual crapping and dunno which one of us came to the subject of guys. ok... lolx =P Haix... then i thought abt HIM. =)

I MISS HIM ALOT LEHH.... =(

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Anyone wanna hav a go at this code? lols. joking. to those hu noe, dun post it on my tag board k?

I miss the days with him.
I'm hating my days without him.
I hate the feeling of emptiness in me.
I hate the feeling of loneliness in me.
I hate the empty space in my heart.
I miss not being able to see him nowadays.
I hate him for not going online often enough...
I hate missing him.
I hate not being in e same school as him.
I'll hate him forever if he dares break my heart. (no la, jk de... every1 has 2 move on... =))
I MISS HIM A WHOLE LOT!!!

Someone mend my broken, empty, lonely, sad, depressed heart........

='(

Then Alvina was like asking me wad HE looks like.
And i was having a hard time trying to answer all her questions abt him.... lols xD

Alvina asked me ALOT of questions ok? Its like shes crazy liao.. hahaha.
Then she keep on saying dat its ME that is CRAZY xD

I MISS HIM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!

SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I MISS HIM....

Missing him
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2006-07-19T17:45:00.001+08:00

THAT PERSON PISSED ME OFF AGN TODAY.

Wahlaoooo!!!!!!!! Wads that person's prob lah??!!
1.Refuses to cooperate
2.Give AP to my whole art group.
3.Gimme that crappo face of hers.

WADTHE??!!

She freaking got PMS is it? Wah laoo. She thinks she's some princess issit?

WAD THE FREAK... WAD THE FREAK.... WAD THE FREAK.

WAH PIANG!!!! So pissed off today. Today during PW already gou can le ok? Then art still have to give AP. Wah laoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FREAKING PISSED OFF TODAY LARH!!!!

Wads her problem lo?! People put up with her she de guo cie guo and de cun jin chi. Wah lao!!!!!

She freaking has AP. She freaking has PMS. And she's a freaking LONER. Wah lao eh.

Now I know why so many people hate her le. She's such a....... Ok. I DUN HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY.

I'm just so DARN DARN DARN PISSED OFF BY HER TODAY!!!!! WAD THE HELL IS HER PROB LAH?

She is such a toot lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM SO PISSED OFF BY HER TODAY. BGFF. SEE HER RELLI FEEL LIKE PUNCHING HER AP FACE.

SERIOUSLY, WADS HER PROB LAH!!!!?????

Freaking pissed..... I'm fuming all over.

ARGH!!!

Go live ur freaking
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2006-07-18T17:52:00.000+08:00

Ok, yay, that person didn't try to piss me off today... Cos she was kinda busy today... hehehs.

Today was bad:
1.I had a relli hard time getting to sch today.
2.I didn't bring my acc hw.... haiz. Almost couldn't get e marks for e hw.....
3.It was a really HOT DAY today.
4.Lilaoshi turned the fan down agn today. although it was already hot enough.
5.My hand is aching frm all e writing i did today in school.
6.I didn't hand in english hw by e end of e period.

Today was GREAT!:
1.I got a gown =) And so does everyone else =)
2.I found out a NEW BUS ROUTE today =))
3.I got my marks for acc after all. After MANY MANY tries of persuading Lilaoshi
4.Donovan made me laugh today. ALOT. So i guess it isn't that bad sitting with him after all =D
5.That person didn't piss me off today =)
6.I got $99 free. (dun be silly, its e gown, its FREE! =D)
7.I had a nice time in sch today apart frm acc lesson.
8.I wrote a REALLY LONG reflection on 'Onto Higher Ground'. =D (im such a marvellous writer. lol xD)
9.Mr Lim was nice to e class today
10.I think i got quite good marks for chi test =D
11.I UNDERSTOOD and had a GREAT TIME during maths lesson =DD)

Wow. God rocks. God works miracles. I was thinking to him yesterday, pls help me, dun make my life so miserable. And he did =)))

PRAISE THE LORD!

WHEE! I lubb my God!!! =)))))))))

Though i miss my dad.... I wish he'll come back soon. ='(
Enough things have been happening in my life.... Im pretty tired already. And life without my daddy is relli.... weird =(

I miss HIM alot too.
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<3 [526453]

I hope we will__..Xx
meet agn soon]]*

2006-07-17T18:52:00.000+08:00

I'm pissed. I'm so damn pissed today.

FREAKING PISSED.

Pissed off................................................................................
PISSED OFF.
DAMN FREAKING PISSED OFF.

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DARN FREAKIN PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!

pissed.......
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The person whop made me FREAKING PISSED, u should noe urself. that is, if you hav any SENSE OF SHAME at all. Stop being an idiot. stop being so ignorant. It wont help. Stop thinking ignorance is a bliss, cos it isn't. Ppl say lots of bad things abt you behind ur back, but i nvr ever did join them. Though i noe ur an egoistic freak. But now, i think things change already. Stop acting like u hav PMS all the time. Stop acting like ur all-so-that. I pissed already. I've been tolerating you, hanging out with you, and yet you choose to take this forgranted.

Stop going arnd acting like some freak can. you piss MANY PPL OFF. U think u're the only one that knows how to play bad guy. You egoist freak. You always make sure other ppl gets pissed off by you all the time right?

You wad? AP is it? huh? or mother nvr teach u manners? huh? dun act like such a freak can? The only thing you are good at is to go arns and piss other ppl off. I tolerate u dunno like wad shit le. u think ms nice is here to stay? NO. I was your fren when the whole class hated you. And now, i think you are pissing me off. Stop following me everywhere i go. Stop acting like a leech. Stop acting as though you belong. People hate you. You're just making it worse. I tolerated with you. and you took advantage. I can list out all the things you have done. All your AP facial expressions. STOP PISSING ME OFF. seriously la. u think u wad? teacher praise you abit then act like dunno wad like that. I'm freaking pissed off le k?

I hav been tolerating you, and you "bu ling qing". Guess wad. You dun wan me as ur fren right? Fine, then go LIVE UR LONER LIFE. OK la. You dun appreciate me then fine. I wont be bothered with you.

I tried to help you change, but you dun want to. i thought u weren't as bad as everyone thinks. and to think ur gonna try for sc next yr. change ur AP first.

I TRIED TO HELP YOU. BUT SINCE YOU DUN WANT TO CHANGE, AND YOU TREAT ME LIKE DIRT, FINE.

BGFF.

U TREAED ME LIKE DIRT. SINCE YOU DUN WANNA CHANGE, I SHANT BE BOTHERED.

U're a gone
xX..__case

2006-07-16T20:32:00.000+08:00

Heyzzzz everyone =)

I just did smth. which i think i should not hav done. oh well. wads done is done. just wondering wad others will be thinking. I think they'll think im immature. lol. anyway, who cares. im a sec1. i still got excuse =) This blog relli super personal sia =) alot of ppl dunno my blog url. and i would want to keep it this way. hope that wadever i did will not offend too many ppl. anyway, i think its a very good way. i dun hav to hide myself anymore. or worry abt other ppl finding out =D Im free from worries!!! whees!!!

I love the space im given on my blog. I miss my daddy. =( Daddy please come back soon! =(

Ok, enough le. muz control my emotions =) I just hope THAT PARTICULIAR blog owner wont mind and will forgive me... hehehx. thats my greatest wish now. lolx. Anw, if he happens to read tis i just wanna say sorry =( Its one of my greatest... err... how to say. imperfection. very sad sia. Hope that the blog owner will forgive me. Then not so awkward when we meet in school. (although he dunno who i am) Sum1 tell me, did i do the right thing? I scared later liuying jie angry with me also... for some reason. which i dunno. i dunno why im so scared. why am i so scared? sum1 help me uncover this mystery.

I feel miserable. ='(

I miss my daddy already le. its already an empty space in my life.... And now this had to happen. its a misery... oh it is.

And now God is probably watching me being so miserable. someone please help me. God pls help me. I miss my daddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss HIM.

526453!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever...

It seems so long...
when will i see u again?
xX..__I miss you.

2006-07-16T16:30:00.000+08:00

Got tagged... by Liuying. haha. u very pro rite? lol. Kk. i do.

1.what's the best nickname you've ever had?
Er... ET.... hahahas

2.Do you think suicide is the best way?
no la. u siao. i wont give up my life for ANYTHING.

3.Rate ur social life from 1-10
ehhhhh.... 6?

4.Are you in love with someone at the moment..
Er... Todays weather very nice leh xD

5.Are you missing someone at the moment?
Him. pri school frens. my dad.

6.Would you die for someone you love?
Think so. I'm willing to die for GOD x)

7.Do you think love hurts?
ya... duh!

8.What is the best thing about love?
Er. Lemme see.... dunno leh. alot of good things.

9.What's the worst thing about love?
Er. I also dunno. I think its missing e person and being used...

10.Will you wait for someone you love?
How bout 15 min? haha. jk. Hmm... i take it as it goes la. but for now right... i wont wait. that person will wait =D

11.What is the song that best describe ur love life at the moment?
I dun hav a love life =D

12.Do you want to get married?
Er... im 13 only o.o Yea. but i guess so. its good to have someone to depend on =)

13.Have you talked to the person you love for the past 24hrs?
Er.... lemme seee.... think not. he's in another sch... hehehx. but if u say last few weeks.... maybe. =)

14.Do you keep memories or try to forget them?
Its part of ur past wad. u wont be able to forget de.

15.Is love always on your side or opposite you?
Hmmm.... good question. I dunno.

16.Are you sick of love?
er... reality check... i dunno to date...

17.Are you sick of questions of love?
Er. With these questions, YES.

18.What are you going to do today-tomorrow?
Er. go 2 sch? use com? practice piano? sing? face my chers? being bored to death with boring teachers? sms? talk? sleep? eat? go toilet?

19.What do you want to do badly right now?
Finish this stupid question... and go on to the next and the next and the next and get on with my life. tis questionnaire's boring me to sleep.... zzz...

20.Do you think money is everything?
No larh. my spiritual life more important.... it concerns life and death!!!! - eternally.

21.What's the song you last just downloaded?
Er. i dun download songs. I very guai one =D

22.How much you love music?
As much as HIM.

23.Do you play an instrument?
Refer to question 18.

24.Have you written your own song?
yes but i didn't finish it. it's half-done =D

25.What's the movie you last watch?
Er.... dunno? I long time nvr go cinema le =)

26.Do you believe in love forever?
Yes. With GOD that is.

27.What's in my mind right now?
YOUR mind? How i noe. u think i wad, mind-reader ar? =P

28.What song is in my brain right now?
Refer to question 27 =P

Five people to do this quiz
Er.... Anyone who hasn't done this quiz and stumbles upon my blog. hehehx.

2006-07-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

Had choir today... it was fun =) But then during gown fitting rite. the whole thing turned out H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E. I couldn't fit into any of the gowns. its either they were to short or else its my hips too wide or shoulders too broad. ARGH. Being a tall swimmer sucks.
1.Swimmers supposed to have streamlined body shape. female swimmers must have S-shaped (therefore hips and shoulders so big)
2.Swimmers have to be tal. its an advantage ya know.
3.Swimmers always get zheng-ed by their coaches. Me being a very very good, living evidence. (grrrs)

Stupid lah. so choral and swimming dont match. right? Maybe they do, with the lung capacity and all, but when it comes to DRESSING UP for CONCERTS, you get a SUPER HARD time trying to fit into a GOWN. This is so... sucky.

Today's sat worship was niceeee =) JiaMi jie is such a GOOD speaker. And not to mention, she has a SUPER CUTE DAUGHTER =) Her daughter relli very cute lo. Then when i came home, SOMETHING had to spoil my mood. won't tell you wad it is though =))

2006-07-14T19:44:00.000+08:00

Can't wait for tmr!!!! Yay! coach dun hav chance to zheng wo tmr... especially with my swimming lvl now.. lifeguard...(not hao lian larh) -.- wah sei.... heng tmr no swimming... or else MORE LAPS OF BACKSTROKE. I HATE BACKSTROKE. Ok, maybe jus detest. But i so don't like backstroke... I'm very very slow when swimming backstroke.... hehe. I love freestyle!!!! Yea. And breaststroke. I hate it when the water goes into my nose. hate it. hate it. hate it!!! Thats why i hate back stroke. ok, enough on elaborating abt my hatred towards backstroke. Its just a swimming style anyways rite? hehe.

Tmr morning got rehearsal... for founders' day. Sian! Ok larh, maybe not too sian larh. Choir can be fun sumtimes =)) And tmr got gown fitting. shit. i think im gonna look stupid in that silver colour gown.... And still have to take super good care of the gown... cos borrow de. If spoil then die lo. cos is borrow frm seniors and ex-seniors de mahs... Next yr gonna get new gown so they not buying new gowns for us. cos waste money mah. You'd rather save then spend rite? some more next yr changing gowns le. dunno how stupid i'll look. ok, next.

Tmr is saturday!!! And there'll be sat worship... Cheer everyone! come on, I said CHEER! *woots* YAY! Ok, enough of zi high-ing liao. Yay!!! Im sooooo looking forward to tmr!!! =))) Cheers everyone! Ok, tts abt it today. so, tata!

I miss HIM.
526453!

2006-07-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

Oh yea and btw ppl, I dun hav a crush on xxxx. I just think he's good-looking and cute. I am thinking of somebody else frm HCI.... winks winks ;)
;)
;)
;)

Ok. enough winks already. I miss that guy soooo much..............
But that guy probably cant sense it.... I miss him so much!!

526453!
526453!!
526453!!!
526453!!!!
526453!!!!!
526453!!!!!!
526453!!!!!!!
526453!!!!!!!!
526453!!!!!!!
526453!!!!!!
526453!!!!!
526453!!!!
526453!!!
526453!!
526453!
526453...
526453...
526453...
526453...
526453...
526453...
526453...
526453...
526453...

I miss him...
Alot....
Alot....
Alot....
Alot....
ALOT.

2006-07-13T20:28:00.000+08:00

Sian.... today SUPPOSED to have choir one lor!!!! Then in the end mr toh cmi...... diao.... But yay, cos i can like, go for e follow up... hehehx. Follow up with liu ying and lydia. it was NICE! We tok alot of crap during follow up today. can consider to like, private counselling. hehehehx. Laughed like siao. hehe. it was relli fun =)

Then after some time this girl came into the room and told us ,"eh, we will be praying in tongues outside later hor, dun bei xia dao" didn't noe wad that was but liuying says that "tongue" is tis language that is bestowed onto some of us by GOD. Its actually a way for christians to communicate with god... Like for eg, when u pray, u dunno wad to say right, some ppl will suddenly speak in tongue. its the holy spirit's work that converts our thoughts into a sort of language. Wah sei, i was thinking like thats so cool sia. But then liuying said ,"Tongue is a gift from god, not everyone can do it." When ur spirit is at its climax of being so touched by god and u dunno wad to say. you'll be able to speak in tongue which u never could speak before. You will just suddenly like, speak in this totally different language and you will actually understand it.

And its not xie men or wad. its a GIFT FROM GOD. Liuying went on to elaborate abt this guy in my cell, alvin, who one day could SPEAK IN TONGUE, and he could UNDERSTAND THIS TOTALLY DIFFERENT LANGUAGE which he has NEVER LEARNT BEFORE. And after that he couldn't speak tongue anymore. o.o God is so marvellous. Then after a while right, Lydia, liuying and i heard them praying in tongue outside the room. It was kinda freaky at first, but after that i sort of calmed down when i reminded myself that tongue is a gift from god. Lydia was getting goosebumps larh! Can see them popping up. She was so FREAKED OUT. But the three of us just continued with the follow up.

After our follow up, (yes, they were outside praying in tongues still) we left the room. Wah sei. I saw 6 ppl outside the room facing each other in pairs praying for their partner in tongue. I was staring at them. But they didn't reli care(they couldn't see me anyway, cos they were closing their eyes praying). Me, liuying and lydia just went downstairs and went home.

THEY WERE PRAYING IN TONGUES!

First time I witnessed smth as miraculous as this. I WITNESSED IT OK? Dun doubt me.

Then after that I went to canteen. hehe. saw mommy yijia(choir senior) there. She was makan-ing. Hehe. I was teasing her abt my papa(another choir senior). So farni. Jingyi joined me and my senior after her sectionals. Jingyi did smth relli dumb and i was kinda pissed by it, but who cares. We're close frens. Jingyi got to noe abt my papa. hahaha. so funny. Then when we were on our way walking towards bus 66 bus stop, my mama turned arnd and saw sum1 that looked like my papa. haha. she was screaming like mad. then i was like ,"oi, mummy, ni zuo me la, kan dao cockroach ar?" Then me and jingyi were teasing her all the way home by giving out frequent shouts of "cockroach" in dialect. hahaha. My mommy so CUUUTEE =)

Thats abt it today. God is miraculous. He works miracles.

2006-07-12T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! I changed my layout to this grey and white layout =) nice? I think my skills improving le... hehehs.

Nice sia. I love this layout alot!!!!! I spent lots of time doing it. must give comment kaes? =) thanks! I love the song too. My happy ending by avril lavinge!!!! *woots*

Avri Lavinge rocks!!!!! =) I love Avril! This song totally suits my theme too. haha. it rocks sia!

I love my new layout =) appreciate the layout ppl ;)

I spent like, 4 plus hrs doing this skin. yay. now that its done. I'm happy =D

Nothing to update abt my life.... so.... hehe. byebyes.

Ada: still dunno ar? give you another clue ba. He's in tenor ;) and its 4 letters hor, his name. xxxx =)

2006-07-09T09:50:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.... had choir yst. It was nice =)

The sec 4s came back and boy was it squeezy. Choir overcrowding liao. haha. but the sec 4s are leaving after founders' day concert. That's SAD =(
To ada: try guessing who xxxx is =) Im not saying ;)

Anyway, after choir i had youth worship at all saints church. it was incredible weekend. *woots* It was pretty fun lah, but my cell group was splitted up =( Sad. Only marcus was in my group for incredible weekend. oh ya, ppl, i guess u guys should expect smth tmr when u return to school. A wall will hav graffiti all over it =)

Hmm.... i dun relli hav anything to talk abt. so bye bye =)

2006-07-06T19:09:00.000+08:00

Today was ok la, i guess. Had cca today. tmr still got some more=)

I lubb my cca! CHOIR ROX! All i want to post about today is just abt my choir seniors. Two of them did smth relli great today ;) Read on>>>>

Today after choir pract I walked down chang cheng instead of down e slope. I was talking to my section de sec2 seniors. Then i realised behind us got another choir senior. Haha. That one behind us was a sec3 senior, xxxx . He very cute =) tsktsk. Ok, this doesn't mean anything hor. Then after me and my sec2 seniors walked to the bottom of chang cheng, we split up cos my sec2 seniors walking e other way. So i continued walking alone lo. Then that cute sec3 guy senior was walking behind me. (Damn nervous sia, me =x) Then i continued walking n walking then after that i heard another person calling that sec3 senior behind me. That guy calling him was Hongzhe, my choir sec2 senior frm bass(diff section). Then the two guys walked and talked behind. I wasn't very far ahead of them, so i could hear their conversation. Hongzhe was talking abt football... -.-" That sec3 senior beside him didn't say much.

At the traffic lights those two guys overtook me lah, cos while i was waiting, they walked in front of me. And stopped. Waited for e traffic light to change. After crossing e road we walked to e bus stop. (They were in front of me lagging) We reached the bus stop. They sat down and then i found a comfortable place for me to stand. (leaning against a pole =)) Then after a short while, my section got one sec4 senior arrive at e bus stop. yay! She talked to me for awhile and then suddenly she remembered that her ez-link card no money. She tried to borrow some money frm me and i told her i got no coins. (I forgot i had an extra seventy cents in my pocket, silly me =x) Then she turned arnd and asked the two guys whether they had coins anot. Hongzhe only had 30 cents. He very generous lo, gave the 30 cents(GAVE) to my sec4 senior. so nice =) Then xxxx didn't hav any coins.(thats wat he said anyway) Then after that, my sec4 senior very depressed. (at that moment i suddenly remembered i had some coins. hallelujah!) my sec4 senior was saying ,"cai que liang mao eh. wo you yi moa zai zhe li" I hurriedly took out my coins. I tried to pull out the coins frm my pocket but my mp3 e wire caused my hands to get stuck there. Then i saw xxxx also putting his hands into his pockets. I was like thinking: Aiyo, better hurry up, later she(e sec4 senior) dunno whose coins to take.(silly sia? x] ) Then when i was already holding onto my coins, trying to pull em out of my pocket, xxxx's hands suddenly got one 20 cent. wah piang. Then after that i saw that my sec4 senior e hands rite, got like 2 20 cents and 2 10 cents. wah sei. I looked down at the coin i was holding. a 50cent! Then i exchanged my 50 cent coin for 2 20 cents and one 10 cents. (its more convenient for her)

After this "money trouble" the bus came. Wah sei, super full. then the bus stop got alot of ppl take bus 66. Me and e sec4 senior got onto e bus, but after a few more ppl squeezed in, no more space le. Then i saw Hongzhe and xxxx standing outside through the window. wah sei. poor thing. Then i saw some ppl that came later than hongzhe and xxxx on e bus. I swear i saw those ppl walking towards the bus stop when the bus came!!!! hongzhe and xxxx very nice leh. i think they let those ppl get onto e bus; and they themselves didn't hav any space for themselves. so poor thing. aiyo. Really admire those two sia. haha.

lol. anyway, thats wad happened today when i was going home. hongzhe and xxxx did two good things today. they gave my sec4 senior some money for a bus ride home and they gave up the space on a bus for a ride home. so, to all the guys in my class who think choir guys suck, all i have to say is:

They seriously dun suck and they are really very gentlemen de ok, unlike YOU ALL.

P.S. xxxx is soooooooooooo cute!!!! I think im in love... ok, diao -.-"

ChoirGuys are Gentlemen!!!!!!
ChoirGuys = Gentlemen
CGs = G

CGG forever!!!!!

2006-07-02T19:55:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..... today quite sian. went to church this morning and went for a walkathon in the afternoon. The walkathon was super boring... oh ya, and i performed today in church =) Choir. haha.

aiya, naturally, im in e 2nd part(alto). but my church children's choir conductor er.... alot of ppl hate her. so lesser and lesser ppl in choir. the old ones went and no new ones came. so lesser and lesser ppl lo. then today's performance seriously sucked like.... er.... shit. only 14 ppl performing. then i am one of the few seniors in choir. there were 6 sec 1s and above ( seniors =) ). then 4 of them sang 2nd part. then end up 2nd part louder then 1st part o.o First part all AIRBAGS. sang until like super airy. no support AT ALL. Super airy lo. i hear already wanna faint. some more the airy sounds weren't carried far away from the stage. then end up very soft. haiz... =(

Children choir now is pathetic.

Then during rehearsal that time conductor keep saying 2nd part good =) then 1st part... haiz. super soft. the conductor say can only hear 2nd part. (i wonder how we did during the real performance) Its pathetic larh.

Walkathon was er.... ok. but the games were VERY sucky. I was like standing there sian sian like dat.... watching other ppl playing. so lame... haiz.

REGRET GOING.

Thats abt everything for today lo. BORED.

SIANZ....

LMAO -.-"

2006-06-30T13:12:00.000+08:00

Sian.... today sports meet. Basically just watched the ppl running around the tracks lo. sian diao. So bored!!! I wanted to sleep. some more the sun was like, shining so brightly that i had to hide at the back of the stands among the choir seniors -.- Then i just stand there and tok tok tok with my frens lo. lol. sian la. can die.

then the rara competition was like, big SIAN. NCC e cheer very funny leh. haha. i was like, laughing like some dumbass that was mentally retarded. big LOL. My blog is like, soooo boring. it'll probably die like my previous blog but who cares lah.

Then after the sports meet hor, the prize giving ceremony was retarded. abt 75% of e medals were taken by SPORTS ppl. SIAN. then u keep seeing the same old ppl over and over agn.

WHY SO SIAN ONE?

Nth to tok abt. I miss mbs sports meet.

sian -.-"

2006-06-23T10:49:00.000+08:00

I just did geog. =x Anyway, Im feeling very tired. VERY VERY TIRED. Its like i almost wished i hadn't been born. haiz... I hope that next semester will turn out to be a better one. I miss my primary sch frens alot... =( I miss my best friend the most. I just talked to her on msn yesterday, and both of us want to go to HCI 3 yrs later... lol. But hallelujah, both of us have the same goal in mind. But hor.... My results are like, averaging at b3??? gosh. And hers are like averaging at a1s. awwwww....... that scgs brainiac. but yea, i got enough time to catch up with her. heheh X).

Cant wait for tomorrow. Im going for cell group at 1300 with jaycelyn and lydia. whees!!!! We're joining the sec4 sports class ppl. haha. they seem like nice ppl to me ;) And then later at 1630 there's youth worship!!! yay! cant wait. But i hav to finish my hws first... damn. Haiz... nvm then. I'll try and look on the bright side of life.

Gosh my mom's crying... wads her prob? Not telling me.... Oh. she lost her A lvls results slip...............

lol?

Ok.... nvm then. Guess she's just depressed that my father went to china to work... I miss my father too! He's only coming bac at 17th August 2006.... Haiz....

thats like.... 55 days away. haiz.

And not to mention he left singapore at 0725 on FATHER'S DAY. Shit the damn job of his.

I MISS MY PAPA.

And father's day was like, 1 day AFTER my freaking birthday and my dad gave me present :
3 pairs of shorts(2 SP, 1 dunno wad brand)
and a pair of SP slippers.
AND LEFT S'PORE E NEXT DAY.

Damn. My 13th birthday sucks.

That explains why Im like, so depressed.

55 days more.

2006-06-22T23:04:00.000+08:00

Ok, for those that actually keep track rite, u will noe that my last blog just died and well, I created this blog so that I'll hav my personal diary. I hope that my frens will like, be nice to me and keep this blog url a known secret between my close frens only. And to those ppl whom aren't in my links, i hope you will forgive me. cos i only remembered some of the urls. sorry.

And if you actually bothered to read the intro, this blog's layouts will be created by myself and myself only. I wont be taking ANYTHING of blogskins or wadever. Im creating my own layouts. I hope that in this way I'll be more bonded with my blog, so forgive me if the layouts are totally UGLY or wadever. The layouts are supposed to keep me bonded with my blog... so, well.... I hope u'll understand.

Anyway, its already very late... so, good nite everyone!